Dear God Poem by Mel Caron

I am having these dreams, again
About the future, it seems
I feel pain coming my way
Don’t even know, if I will be okay
Or strong enough, to gain my dignity
Pain from loss, might destroy me
Oh God I pray
That you watch over me, every day
I am falling weak to disaster
Today, tomorrow I fall faster
Into depression, I am not well
Emotionally, I feel like I am trapped in hell
Why must I pay once more, for a man’s mistakes
No please, I do not have what it takes
To stand alone, in this maze
My vision, is blinded by a haze
Of confusion
Is love meant to be an illusion?
Please, do not take my family away
Like you did the day
Mom stood in those hospital doors
With her tears, falling on those hospital floors
I do not know how, she could walk away
Instead of running after me that day
Tears fall from my eyes
My innocence has been diminished by lies
I feel like a hopeless soul
Who is trapped in a darkened hole
When my only desire, is to feel
Loved, I am so lonely, this is unreal
I am so sorry, forgive me for my sins
Just sometimes, the devil wins
Me over, when I cry alone, I sometimes feel
That true happiness, doesn’t exist for real
Please, show me the way
As I outlive each upcoming day
I must take the time to change
Please, grant me the strength to rearrange
Who I am inside
Dear God, I ask you to provide
Me love
Or take me away, to the heavens above
I cannot take it anymore
I am more broken, than ever before
God, do not let me fall apart
Please grant me love, to mend this broken heart
Tonight, I write a poem to pray
That you will watch over me and my loved ones each and every day
Please, no more pain
Just the sunshine, after the rain