Dear Mom Poem by Jenah Bergman

dear mom.....
you cant read my mind
and if so
you would know
you would know how much hate i have
not only towards you but too me too
yea i hate myself
and you
how sad is that
im sick of crying over you
you say you care but i know you dont
i know you dont
if you did
you would be home at night
you would know
know that im buliied everyday
wether im at school or not
you would know that i dont go to school everyday
i stay home
you wouldnt know that
because your never home
when you are home
your only there physicaly
never menatly.
i hate that i cant breath
i cant breath around you
i cant breath when i talk to you
i hold my breath
hoping nothing bad happens
i get to scared
sometimes so scared im locked in my room
and not breathing
i hate how one minutte you love us
and the next your yelling
callling us names
in our face screaming
screaming to get out
screaming how ungrateful we are
i hate the feeling of being scared
i cant do it any more, mom
she needs you
shes too young
im too young
i cant ber her mom
she needs you
but you dont care
as long as you got your alcohol
your boyfriends
your ciggereets
and work
there just too much
too much anger not enough
not enough love
i hate you
and i hate that i do......