this rage overcomes me
I want to scream and let frustration take me
take me and hold my soul in its grasp
to let it keep me there for eternity
its easier than fighting
I hate this world! I hate its beings!
why cant they all perish and leave me be! ?
criticism follows me
retracing my very steps... a stalker in my life
why cant you go die! ?
I carry myself with pride and confidence
then I go home and cry and rid myself of this pain another way
and then all pain goes away and I’m free, dreaming my dreams...
am I crazy?
what’s that? a corner.... whose there! ? a tree...
I swear I saw something, lurking behind me
stealthy following me through the shadows...
within the shadows... will it kill me?
does it want me dead?
'What do you want! ? ' I call
no answer come from the shadows
'Who are you! ? ' still, no reply
is someone truly there? what am I thinking?
who am I? am I really me? is something inside me?
no, I feel no inward presence... what wrong with my head?
my family rejects me
friends believe I’m crazy.... no one knows me
I’m alone... can someone help me?
no one will answer.. of coarse not
there is no help for me...
I will just perish along with night
and I will lie by moonlight one last time
staring at the stars, as bats fly by
I feel a cool breeze... I hear a whisper...
I turn my head, knowing what awaits me...
and I die silently while my spirit kills me
Wednesday, January 26, 2011