Deathly Life Poem by Shastina McElmurry

hurting inside but not letting go
where am i in life i dont really no
people dnt understand meh at all
thts why no one catches meh wen i fall
scars of such a dark past
im starting to realize the pain is gunna last
hating this life tht i live
in so much misery cant forgive
from my eyes i see only pain
hatred lies tht will remain
living in a world with an enemies crys
letting go with last goodbyes
pressing the gun to mah head
letting the bullet tear through mah brain then im dead
suicidal thoughts run through mah mind
in the darkness mah way i can not find
walking through th myths of hell
to the devil my soul i will sell
falling 6 feet under with a knife
getting ready to take a life
make this melody sing its sorrow
pray to god i dont wake up tomarrow
i cant live another day in these shoes
wake up from this nightmare is mah choice to choose