Deception Of An Evil Mind Poem by Amber Zenisek

Never want to breakdown.
Why the world has stopped to look at me?
Lose who we are inside a mind of nightmares.
The spirits have come to take me away.
The hallucinations torturing me.
The lights keep me safe from the demons.
Racing thoughts controlling me.
I was born like this, it will decide my fate.
It tells me I don't need medication, but I do.
Falling faster down into the black hole.
Holding me down, destroying my dreams.
I will self-destruct in the end.
There is nowhere else to go.
My life has been a living hell.
The past hurts too much to look back on.
I blame others, for the pain I feel.
I am embaressed for people to know who I really am.
I will never turn out like you, I always told myself.
But look who I've become.
Why I blame others? I don't know.
All I know is I'm not right, and I will never be alright.
Trapped inside a mind of hate, and sick thoughts.
When I say I don't remember, then I don't!
Please believe me, I am lost inside.
I have let you down, I am nothing but disapointment.
Please understand who I have become.
Hurt and destroyed from childhood.
Why do I let them get to me?
Why do I let them win?
I was born like this.