Departed... Poem by NIKHIL SHRIVASTAVA

you know that state of mind....
when everything is left behind..
superior and dire...
flanged like waste attire..
all the burden in heap..
but i have taken a leap..
the constant tension...
life in detention...
all of it outlying..
its real n i am not trying..
i did what i could..
destiny didn’t do as it should..
powerless n alone..
in agony i would moan...
compassion wasn’t for me..
like i was never free...
misery would always stay..
like thorns on my way..
heart was filled with murk..
for glee i would lurk..
the torture was too much..
i couldn’t live as such..
life is forever dear..
not only d soreness mere..
it was difficult to haul more..
deep within the core...
whatever little delight...
n bliss...was lost in my plight...
root was ever the cost...
but only motive was lost..
its not that i never tried..
misfortune on my side..
taking toll all along..
like a scrounger strong..
sucked life away..
hollow this body lay...
it would always rain..
on me no dampen stain..
in bright day light..
i was blind and no sight..
life had to end someday..
i never expected this way..
but this is the only resort..
to get out of drought...
with every breadth..i was drifting..
whole point of trying was shifting..
now it was not start but end..
i had begun the decent..
with each breadth deep..
to sanity i sleep...
i would never know where it started..
end i know n i have departed................................