I learn not to mention them
too often:
my greyscale days -
this, too familiar, depressive haze.
I can view
your vibrant summer,
from afar.
To me it is simply
an unreachable star.
Is the physical illness
worse,
or the curse
of feeling constantly empty inside?
I don't know, or even care, any more.
I mainly exist
behind my cell door.
What is my life for?
And then it returns:
the darkness. Pure darkness.
Almost enticing - almost inviting.
The moment
when grey
becomes black
once again.
I can never explain
why I am
immersed
in emotional pain -
why sometimes
I can barely
function
at all.
Yet, still I am trying to smile,
and sometimes I do.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Sometimes the people who you see in a 'vibrant summer' are just hiding their own 'greyscale days'. Loved this take on depression and the 'black dog'. We all just try to smile xx good write.