Dickensian Rhapsody Poem by Justin Reamer

I sit here on a bleacher seat,
Watching nothing going on on the field,
It is a Robotics Trip,
With the regular daily competitions.

As I sit here,
I write down with my pencil,
Ever thought that comes to my head.
However, something comes to my mind,
With the girl who sleeps
On the floor in front of me.

It's funny enough to think
The the emotions weren't there before,
But they came as an epiphany,
Striking just last Sunday.

I had thought of nothing
But friendship when I saw her face,
But then peculiarities came around
As soon as the break-up happened.

The girl and I had only been friends
All throughout the entire year,
And nothing passed between us,
For there was not connection at all.

She was dating a boy,
With the utmost joy,
There was not a frown on her face,
So it's safe to say.

I was recovering from depression,
Making brand new friends,
I even had my first relationship,
That did not end too well.

After my relationship ended,
I stuck with my New Year's mission,
I tried to achieve redemption
With the beauty I had wronged.

All the while, the girl was happy,
Whether it was known or naught,
It was fairly simple,
For it could be observed.

I tried to atone for my wrongs,
With the brown-haired beauty,
But she freaked out,
And I had another ordeal.

I stood trial
For about two weeks,
And i eventually explained everything,
And thus I succeeded.

At about the same time,
The girl went through an ordeal,
Her boyfriend had cheated,
And she broke up with him,
And a long story ensued.

Things were back to normal,
In my version of the world,
But in her version,
Everything was falling apart.

I though everything was normal,
For I had the friends I had.
I had finally gotten out of the Abyss,
And had killed the daemon in my chest.

But the girl, on the inside,
Was falling apart,
I could tell from 'The Mask, '
Which I had read later.

But things started to happen,
Matters I took lightly,
I still cannot explain it,
For it is inexplicable.

At Traverse City,
On the way home,
We stopped at Mickey D's.
At this time, I thought
Of her as a friend,
And I had followed my vow,
That I would never lay a hand
On a girl unless she thought otherwise.
I did not want deja vu
To happen from a previous event
I must omit.

When we stopped at Mickey D's,
Life had seemed so perfect,
and I acknowledged her
As she sat next to me.

I was sitting next to Mike and Lyssa,
And Sean and all of his friends,
When she sat at my table,
I acknowledged her,
And I took it very lightly.

There was a span between then,
When the girl and I were
What I thought were only 'friends.'
We talked in the hallways,
Acting like very old friends,
We talked about everything,
Everything that came to mind.

There was a two-week span
In between, and I still
Had felt nothing.
It was not until GVSU
That my world almost
Turned upside-down.

I had gotten something to write in,
So I went somewhere quiet,
But then Lindsay came in,
Surprisingly with a grin.

She said she was worried,
And she had been looking all over for me;
I said I was fine,
I had been writing all along.
The she said to come watch Wobot,
And that I did later,
Rejoining all her friends.

I then began to question,
What the hell was happening?
No girl ever worried about me,
And they certainly did not care where I was.
What was this, I questioned,
Some kind of cruel joke?

Things got me questioning even more,
The peculiarities, that is,
Though there were the normalcies,
That did not bother me in the least.

I showed her my journal,
And she liked it quite a lot,
And we danced for fun,
And she said I was a very good friend.
And I thought this was normal.
Is this now what friends do?
Is it not what they are for?

But then there were the weird,
That I will soon mention,
And I will hark them in order.

We had the normal things, of course,
And they were fine to me,
But there was the interesting thing,
That freaked me out most of all.

Lyn came up to me
And extended her arms;
She had just hugged Holly,
A good friend of hers and mine.

I then freaked out rapidly,
For multiple different reasons,
And I did not know what to do,
So my brain began to think.
I would be breaking my vow,
Something that I was committed to,
And what was worse
Was that I would be called
Rapist and molester for
The rest of my life.
I freaked out because
I did not know what to do.
No girl ever hugged me,
Especially out of the blue.

I was very hesitant,
Thinking on what to do,
When I saw Holly nodding,
And I decided to follow through.

I gave in,
And I gave her a big embrace,
And then I felt the moment,
Freaked out and relieved.
For I had Holly there
Who always had my back.

I don't know if Lyn
Ever confided in Holly,
But it made me wonder,
Did she really feel that way?

As I left for the Church Retreat,
I saw Lyn look back,
As she walked with Alex,
And I was even more confused.

An entire week went by,
And I kind of blew it off,
The thoughts had left my head,
Especially as I hung with
The Weber Family Tree.

And we still talked among the hallways,
In the Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.
However, it was a week later,
That I began to feel something.

Before going to Minnesota,
And throughout the competition,
I thought of Lyn as a good friend,
And nothing had began.

But then the emotions developed,
As the week wore on,
When I saw her in the hot tub,
I began to notice her smile;
Which was so like the maiden's;
I began to notice lots of things,
Which is unbelievable.

I began to notice her smile,
Which was so like the maiden's;
I began to notice her laugh
And her humour
Just like that of a former crush.

I noticed her laughing,
Which was utterly cute,
I liked the way she spoke,
How it was just like Shay.

Throughout the weekend,
We talked a lot, and I
Thought that everything was normal.
But when Sunday finally hit,
I had an epiphany,
I had a feeling that I cared
For this girl who is sleeping by my side.
I will be there,
No matter what,
Even though I abhorred my
Feelings for causing deja vu.

Four days later,
The emotions only became stronger,
I realised how much I cared,
As if I was run with tomfoolery.

I did not know when to make
My confession,
I did not know if prom
Was right,
For it may be too short.

I agreed to be patient,
Which was one of my biggest tributes,
But was how I lost Holly,
By waiting far too long.
I did not know when the time
Was right, but I'm
Sure that I would feel it;
I just have to be patient,
For when the time is right.

Well, now, she is alive and awake,
And she is still happy;
But I still contemplate,
If my ambivalence holds true.

I still wait patiently,
If I must at all,
But the time will come,
I'm sure of it,
I'll just have to wait.