Differing Secrets Poem by Eman Awad

So it was the time to open his heart,
and she will be opening her heart too.
She sat there, hoping for a start,
for this love that she's going through.
She found happiness being his friend,
but she wanted much more than this.
She wanted to see love in his eyes,
she wanted to tell the whole world about him.
She wanted to admire his love and complain his lies,
she also imagined his parents and wanted to meet them.
That was the secret of her heart just longing to,
be a fact and take place in time and through their years.
No, he won't tell her i don't or i do love you,
life to him went far beyond feelings to be just his fears.
He wanted to ask her if she ever felt the same,
that there is a void inside her overrating to eat her life.
He wanted to ask her if she feels that pain,
of being asleep and not be able to sleep and still survive.
And how he's so lonely like there's no one in this world,
she tried to cheer him up but he went with words he talked.
He told her that once, he loved that beautiful girl,
she was far and distant and like mercury, away, she walked.
She couldn't speak, her world went upside down,
and she felt that void overrating and eating her up within.
He said, how can we live and never frown?
how can we live when the idea of living it self is a sin? ?
The girl that he once loved said those words,
just as he was trying to cheer her up and speak of love.
He walked her home but he entered her worlds,
and the next day, she was gone, not any where but above.
He couldn't feel but with that razor in his hands,
but he said to him self, why not give life a try? ?
Maybe there's a chance that my heart and mind understands,
but he got so empty that he couldn't be sad and cry.
He told her that she was the best friend he've had,
her face was the last he wishes to see before he leaves this land.
Few days later she got over him but she didn't cry,
she tried to understand but she couldn't and she wasn't sad,
she didn't feel but with that razor in her hand...