Disloyal Desire Poem by Chanja Cassini de Thury

Shame
and pain
Myself to blame
Couldnt resist
or Delay desire
Went to fast
Blurred; sorrounded by fakes and liars
Search deep within
The sea of pleasures
Filled with love and simple leisures
And then the not so simple one
The defies the many others
Desire
Want want
So much
Just to kiss
And all to touch
Wish to be out of its clutch
For I am very weak
Meak
Soley
Petite
Eyed by many boys
But of course Im lustful, teasing and the acting coy
Shall I be the one to break my moral code for
Desire?
Shall I be the one to throw the wood on the fire?
Ive laid in my grave before Ive dug it
Silly metaphor so just shrug it
Do I hurt another for my holllow wants
Even if for years, this knowlegde shall haunt? ?
Do I let it all flow to me,
Harshly casting words out like love, while carresing my body?
Or must I ignore my mind
That has been gnawing at me like a leach on my skin
Do I leave behind
What I cherished the most
For some mere convincing ghost?
Almost almost
Slow, Soft, Sensual
Desire....