Disown Me Poem by Breianna Richardson

Standing here trying to prove that am worthy, that I matter
Trying to satisfy you, always trying to climb the highest latter
Looking around trying to see that I'm more than the person you no more grow to love but hate
Trying to believe that's there's better in you, not trying to take the bait
How could you wish harm upon me
How could you look at me as nothing but sin? Is that all you see?
How could you wish death upon & the worse for me?
How can I forgive the hateful words I can't erase that's stuck in my memory
You hope that I rotten in hell some day
Those things you wish upon someone, these hateful things you say
You telling me that I don't deserve to be anyone's sister,anyone's daughter
Taking away the little love I desired
How could you hate me as much as you do?
What on Earth have I ever done to you?
It kills me inside that everyone turned on me as if I was nothing but the devil
What makes you think I'd ever go to such a lower level?
It makes it easier to believe I'd betray you for a man
I used to always think no negative should come from that, your mother was your biggest fan
At this point it doesn't matter no matter what I say
Everyone is going to think the worst of me, think of things their way
I have absolutely no further interest in proving my case
No more dealing with this ridiculousness, no more walking with a sad face
You're all done & so am I
I guess this is truly goodbye
You've disowned me for the last time
I'll worry no more, God has me, I'll be fine
The truth will come out & nothing but it please believe me
After its does I still need my distance, you're family I cannot be
I never put a man before my family
That was never the number one factor, a man never took all of me
They say family will do you worse than friends
Family with leave you to rotten in the end
You want to know the truth? I always felt alone no matter what
I did what I had to do, didn't expect to put anyone in a rut
I realized that in this world I only have myself
No one would care for me not a man, not my mother, not anyone else
I hate that it turned out this way
The truth is all I had, I didn't know what else to say
I've forgiven everyone for all the hateful things that were said
But remember their in a text, they can still be read
Hate me now & forget me not
About love & hate, we taught each other a lot
Most of all it was nothing but hate
How could I be right as a kid when I said alone would be my fate
In my future, I only see myself
I've learn to forgive but I vow that other than God I will love no one else
Everyone will see that I'm no devil when I get it together
I'm fighting this almost unbearable stormy weather
Everyone will get they're as they should
I keep my promises, you'll be paid as I said you would
I'm letting it go & letting it be
At this point it's the end & I'm done, feel free to continue to disown me
I'm done trying to find a purpose in anyone's life but I'll make this right
As for love? I'm done with this fight