Dissapear Poem by Alice Silvers

I am dissapearing
I wonder how this came to be
I hear their voices, begging me to come back
I see blurred facesof people I once knew
I want this to end
I am fading

I pretend I'm ok, I can handle it
I feel the pangs of guilt
I touch my face softly, wondering how I could have changed so much
I worry I won't be able to go back to who I was
I cry to myself silent tears of regret
I am drifting

I understand now what must be done
I say forgive me
I dream they remember me the way I was, before all this
I try and let go of the past
I hope I did the right thing
I am gone