Don't We Almost Have It All Poem by Erin Jane Creshilt

Love struck I was when I first laid eyes on you
But that feeling quickly faded away with the wind
When you opened your mouth to speak
Your voice was music to my ears
But the way you carried yourself was all air

Ambitions, aspirations, dreams and all
Art, music, literature
Fun, thrill and adventure
Get-away cars, sports and waves
Beaches, parties and flowing short skirts
As we danced the night away

You took my hand and taught me how to fly
While I did the opposite -
Taught you how to stay grounded while aiming high
You built me up and put my insecurities to sleep
While I taught you to stop pointing out the flaws in each person
And just accept them for who they truly are

I soared up high into the endless blue sky
You tried to follow me
You tried to reach me
You were my one and only competition
But with you my heart was free

For the very first time I felt lost
And you were the only one who found me
The only one who had the courage to break down my walls
The only one whom I could truly rely on

Restless wanderer we both were
Together we reached new heights
But then my inner nomad strike again
And I had to escape reality
Since I felt caged in
Burdened by everything

You told me to stay
And I almost did
But my own fears and insecurities consumed me
And I had to go and leave
And alone you took the fall


Two months passed by
And I felt like I was living a lie
You told me to live like I was dying
I was alive but without you by my side
I was merely existing

Consumed with guilt and regret
I tried my very best to blend in
Tried my hardest to love the new path that I took
But it was completely different
Since I started riding solo

Several more months flew by
Time healed all my wounds
Buried all of my grudges
Hid my frustrations
Concealed all my pent-up emotions
And I slowly changed myself

But alas, time changes everything
And you were one of those changes
During the time you fell down
Someone had caught you in her loving arms
And held you high and proud
Just like what I had done before
Just like what I would have done if I never left
Because we almost had it all....