Drawing Near Poem by Bethany Mujahed

As the time is near
Getting ready to see your little face
Brings such great joy
And also brings fear
That I will not be a good mother to you

I pray to the Heavens
That someday you will see the truth
In my eyes that I have given you everything I could

I want to say that I love you so very much
My little baby son
I may tell people that I hate you
But I am so emotional
I don't hate you my child
For I hate your father who did this to me

I know I will be a bad mom
For telling you that you don't have a father
But its for your own protection
And someday you will learn the truth and
your going to heartbroken
But I'm looking after you my love