Dreaming Of A Sky Paved In Gold Poem by James Darwin Smith II

When the sky is lit
The sun paints it gold
And these blue peeks are gifted
As they lose themselves
In wondering
What the future might bring
In this life's story foretold



Feeling the warmth and compassion
From up above
From another place
A different universe perhaps
Parallel paradise
Where this soul is freed
To go wherever it may want to go


Lost in myself
Residing what finally feels like home
Even now these dreams have no comprehension
Of the love given to me in its most organic form



I cry, thinking I never deserved this
Too much doubt
That I could be truly loved
Always just being the friend
Or even the foe
As one gets use
To feeling ugly and all alone


The sky it opens up even more
A light shines down
More brighter than I have ever seen before


These eyes become blinded
In awe of this divine force
That somehow makes me feel
As if I was truly loved


Then a powerful voice from within
Starts humming beautiful hums
Releasing any tension built
By this awkward self in nervous form


Then the voice it speaks
And says
There is more to life
Then your present self knows
You are still young
And your heart and mind
Are stronger than
You have ever realized before


People worry too much
Worrying does nothing but causes pain
Even over simulates, stimulates the brain
Breaking the heart from time to time
Even takes many years off people
As they rob themselves
Of a life they should be living
In its most fullest of ways


Feeling so much love
Beyond anything I could ever comprehend
Soul full of wonder and excitement
Of what the future will foretell


I know there must be such a beautiful place
That voice has to come from somewhere
With so much love and understanding
I surely hope I end up being there


There is so much to do
Can never contradict myself


Beyond the end
I know this soul will finally be freed
Of the flesh's burden


But for now I must
Keep investing in this fleshly cocoon
So it can teach this soul to fly
When it finally is time to go home



I have gone through dimensions
Perhaps to places I should have never been
Before only to thereafter
When this soul is ready to go
But who knows


When the sky is lit
I can express this true form
Full of love and devotion
Trying to live a life worth living
As if I never lived a life before


Judge me not for my flesh
Only by my soul
For the skin is rented
And the soul is purchased
To live life beyond even our own


I seize the light
So bright and painted with gold
As I pray for a better life
One that shall satisfy this truest form
My soul

Till now and then
I am on my own


Even with that
Things are still too hard
But I keep fighting
Stronger and harder
More than
I have ever fought before


And then there was, is love
What does it at mean in the end?
I guess only time truly knows


I am not satisfied in life
I want so much more


When the sky is lit
A golden angel
Shall guide me where I have never been before
But right now
Is that Angel too scared of me?

I guess I shall see

Who knows?

All I know
I will enter the sky
When it is paved in gold
Even if I have to do it all alone


But then again
Fate is beyond my own control
So who knows?
How everything will be


All I can be is just me
That is all

Alone

Dreaming of a sky paved in gold