Emotional Loneliness Poem by Ambril Hutchinson

As days rush by I spiral in my mind
No safe place, no peace I find
Not even my favorite person hears me out
Just silence where love was supposed to be loud

I keep asking where it all went wrong
Telling myself I gotta stay strong
But it's my fault for expecting the same song
Staying in a place I never belonged

I feel emotional loneliness in my chest
A looping shame that never lets me rest
Same damn chain gets tighter when I explain
Why I'm always the one blamed for my pain

Why am I always the villain in your game?
Why does my love get treated the same?
Like something disposable, easy to erase
Like I never even mattered in the first place

As days go by I still ask why
I'm alone while you pass me by
You call it home but it feels like a lie
How do I stay when I'm left here to die inside

All I wanted to put my heart into
Turned into something that broke me in two
I gave and I gave till I lost my name
And still I'm the one expected to take the blame

Left holding weight that was never mine
Love turned sharp, no longer kind
Everything I built just comes undone
While I beg for peace from anyone

Still I'm the one blamed for my pain