Faces Blur Poem by Jenna Dandurand

i know that i'm
crazy.
i know that i
need help.
i know that i
am a danger.
i know that i'm
by myself.
who will see that
i belong in a
padded cell?
who will hear
my deranged cries
of despair?
who can see me,
in plain light?
why does it seem
like i'm living a double
life?
i have no one to love,
no one to hate,
there isn't anyone in
my life at all.
faces blur
straight past me.
i need help,
but who will see?
they all think
that i'm okay.
that i am just
doing okay.
they can't see my blips,
my momentary slips.
they can't notice me
for who i really am.
the faces blur,
the names don't stick out,
the people just fade into
a white-washed background.
no one can hear,
no one can see.
who can even tell?
i don't even know.
who is the real me?