Fertility Poem by Kristina Louisa Carr

As a little girl I was prepared to be fertile
But I knew all along it wasn’t my style
I made plans for a future and career
Everything I lined out very sincere
There was no room for additional life
I never missed a family or being a wife

Then only once I lost myself in another
Very briefly I surrendered to smother
I was tempted and invincible for a while
Until I left sentiments behind like a junk pile
In my schedule and work I found satisfaction
I was on my path again without distraction

The corporate world is a tough play ground
Women have to fight harder to stick around
What is given to a man a woman has to earn
And it is a lonely path disregarding concern
I played by the rules and had it all figured out
But life reserved the last laugh without doubt

New emotions suddenly opened my heart
And all my changes became part of a chart
I carefully outweighed my goals and choices
While I started to listen to familiar voices
My reflection in the mirror changed to another
And I chose to become someone else – a mother