Finding Love Poem by dhana laxmi

Its better to keep inside, easier to hide;
but the feelings in me are so strong, so hard;
They hurt the walls of my heart..
they are the weight that takes me down,
Everytime I want to smile when I see you
but I know it is better to keep it inside

Am caught in the struggle around me, a mailstorm
dragging me, pulling me, tearing me apart
but I have one focal point of light
to hold me, control me and yet drive me apart
that soft smile on your face is all that I see

when I was small, I dreamt a lot
my fantasies full of heros and lords,
but today I am ready to give it up.
I have given up all my dreams,
but all I got are messy feelings,
now I know it is better to keep it inside.

One day when u held my hand and look'd at me
with the same smile in your eyes,
I forget and ask, 'do u love me? '
I panic before you answer and run
I could feel you watching my back as i ran,
yet you did not stop me or call me back,
I ran and ran, tears coursing my cheek,
feeling shame fill me, I forget my place &
fall to my knees...

after hours pass I wake up from dream
and walk home only to find you standing in my path
waiting for me...
arms open, your eyes smiling,
then I knew it was easier to hide but
but is most difficult to be found..
and to be loved..