Finding Me Poem by Mick Law

At the edge of my mind
Where the light leaves me blind
And the darkness is pressing and near
Where happy meets sad and the good meets the bad and the smiles and the grins kiss the tears
That’s where I do dwell in neither heaven nor hell awaiting a throw of the die
And hoping and dreaming of a twisting of fate that will lead to a meaningful life

The richest are content with the least
And their meals are a succulent feast
But my cup is half empty and wanting for more
I strain to grasp time and the quantum mechanical law
A cynical man I became hating business, religion and gain
Yet I wander through life shunning love fearing strife and becoming the source of my pain

Philosophy is my only true find
Making spurious sense of the state of my mind
Gaining nothing but ambiguous thoughts
And then working them out using just ones and noughts
I should turn off the best and the worst of my brain
And leave it to instinct to lead me again to that obvious happiness place