Finding Me Poem by Ryan Anonymous

I just did the hardest thing
By giving up everything
For someone that I care about
And as I put myself out there
All that is returned is the silence
I can slightly hear the tearing of my heart
That sounds like a scratching rat
Everything begins to fall apart
When I get home I can’t sleep
And as I begin to weep
I can’t even think
My thoughts are trapped
What did I just reveal
My whole life is not real
All my success seems like nothing
Without this one
But it is all done
And I am left all alone
With this thought of just wanting to be up above
Why do I care so much I do not know?
I wish I could let it all go
I’ve been trying but I’ve only gotten worse
How did I get so far off course?
It’s as if I have fallen
And can’t rise above
Everything that I felt is bottled up
And it feels like its going to explode
It is killing me because no matter what I say
All I get is a feint “hey”
And that is on a good day
This silence surrounds me and effects me more than anything
She must’ve never felt anything for me
How can u sit there and just listen
Unless you never wanted it to be
Do you not have any feelings
Nothing to tell me
So I will stay in this silence where I will be left with my own craziness
My f***ed up mind and I will hide my emotions
Because I will never understand these notions
Its time for me to leave
To get away from everyone and everything
And find me
Someway.