Forbidden…. Poem by Poornima Kanasen

My heart feels trapped,
Torn apart,
Which looked real, now seems bleary,
Am I going against my Lord?

But my inner self yearns for him,
Voices of heart, blood and flesh he says,
How true is he?
Am I questioning his truthfulness?
If yes, what difference can it make?

Imagination, more unyielding than reality,
Yet, reality unfolds the truth,
The truth, do I want it?
Am I imprudent to accept the truth?

Once, the truth was my master,
Now, I am ticking in secrecy,
My heart beats, for it to happen,
Again and again and again,

Is it forbidden indulgence?
What I felt and feeling now….
Is it immoral pleasure?
Not in my knowledge,

A puzzle with a missing piece,
That makes me incomplete,
Like a riddle, yet to be solved,
Everything is entangled,

Infidelity, I would want to avoid,
Promiscuousness, not in me,
The carnal knowledge between him and me,
Does he want it to last?
Despite, the age….