Thursday, October 6, 2011
Forget Her In Time
I stayed up hours, days, and weeks
After she was gone;
and the world kept turning on
and though she left me broken now
I can’t bare the fear of fixing myself up
For it’s the only thing she left me with
The little parts that remain to remind…
My eyes so blurry from drying tears
My face rubbed raw of tear-stained skin
My body weak from lack of sleep
But far from it the closest thing on my mind…
What do I do? ! ?
What can I say?
Now that you’re gone
Why should I stay? ! ?
She said, “Forget me in time.”
Though those words have stayed in my mind
Her smile, her lips, and her beautiful face
Stay for now until my disgrace
Five months, the tears stop flowing
Mainly from my dehydration
And my eyes swollen from the image
Of her in my dreams, but it so seems
That her face was one or two freckles off
Her favorite lipstick a few more than two hues apart
And now I’m mad at myself
My mind probably damaged from the sleepless weeks...
A year now gone and all that remains of her
Is the vacant left side of our bed
It seems the drinking and the drugs
Have done their part to help
But here I stand, dazed and confused
On what to do; I don’t want to stay
But my hand on the knife seems to refuse
A moment to say, “What if you saw me…”
How to say what it is inside
That everglow of your soul never died
And makes me want to try a little harder
To be less a failed man and more like a father...