From The Bottom Of My Heart
I see you writing about other people
Though I have never seen anyone write about you.
I hear the way you talk about your family,
And you really love us don't you?
You talk about us like we are worth the world.
Although about you, no one really talks.
All I really hear is 'Yea he is awesome.'
Well you are so much more than that.
Okay you get angered easily,
And sometimes get suicidal.
But none of that matters,
Because I truly care for you.
I am worried sick for you every single day.
When you first told me about your sickness,
I would have nightmares about one of your friends saying,
'Are you Kurt's friend? Yea..well...I got some news...'
Then I would wake up and get online,
And only hope that it was a dream.
I feel horrible for all the times that
I was frustrated or angry at you.
Just because you were going to leave this life,
And only leave me a little song.
You are sweet, and loving.
And you are so sensitive.
And more people than you know
Are worried sick about you.
Well now I regret that,
And I hope I can apologize to you.
Please this is killing me inside,
Please wake up now.
If you won't wake up for me,
Then how about for Crystal?
Kassi? Tarah? Yourself?
Please get out of this...please.
Remember all the songs we wrote together?
I hope that their will be many more.
I always thought it amazing how we could
Write from a lovers point of view,
Yet we were brother and sister haha.
I dread going to sleep tonight,
Because I dont want to slip into a nightmare,
And have it become reality.
Another one for my brother.
Written December 5th,2007