for Helen Marchut Collins
I am not just going to work today. Even if
the moonbeams are cherries. Even if heaven
is only one layer thick, and i know what
it is dreaming and what flowers drop. Because
my grandmother had a heart attack, and
i am shivering and shivering and collecting in puddles.
Tearing down the curtain of my secret chamber heart,
where petals scatter and heartache has fallen out of favor,
and i think of the past and the evening stars.
I think of marsh waters that overflow, and the mountain bridge
suspended between the farthermost peaks.
Am i stalling like a flowerseed in a diary that knows it was just a dream,
or am i ripples on the water, falling softly over the courtyard of the sea.
Where life becomes gray with age but it won't last for long.
The sun will still shine like a weeping child
And i return without seeing you: A sinking feeling
in my stomach now is born -
And how useless longing for my mother is. She drowned
in tears shed on her. A keepsake that cries for me like God's banners,
and how i would like to weep secretly, and drink for myself too.
How i would like nothing unhappy to remember, because
i cannot even dream where i will be soon. I am in many ways
a perilous love affair pushing home at dawn. I am surrpised
I am a bead of dew at a butterfly of a wide river that lifts up its fists tight.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Hi Gregory. Lots of powerful emotion coming through with this one. well done a great read. Regards Dave T