Future Poem by Lisa Knipe

If I knew all the things that were going to happen, I think to myself would I done things differently? If I knew I was going to get to heart broken so many times, would I kept my mouth shut? If I knew I was going to get my fingers broke, would I have gone out that day? If I knew my Granddad was going to get cancer, would I have spent more time with him before it was too late? I guess I wouldn't of said or done any different, or I wouldn't be the person I am today. But seriously, I promise myself every time that I will never let any of my problems upset or ruin my life. There's always something to come along and remind me the past, is there and I can't let go. Because everything I've known and believed is in the past, and I still think what if I did things differently. I know I should concentrate on the future, but the future is a scary place and I'm scared that it's going to be as bad as my past. I've been hurt so many times, there's so much I can only take and I can see myself breaking and there's nothing I can do to stop it. I think its time to get myself better, before I start concentrating on life, tomorrow, love and money. I need to take time out and gather my thoughts, maybe in time. I will worry about everything soon, until then it's time for me.