Give Me Back Myself... Poem by Kevin Carney

Give me back myself…
Let go of my soul…
What a hold you have over me…
See my heart.
So blackened by your flames of passion.
I fear that you will never let me go.
I look into your eyes…
I can see a reflection of the devil in you.
Your talons leaving the scars on my back.
I am not sure what tomorrow will bring.
All I can do is live for today.
You have bitten my neck…
Leaving your mark for all to see.
To show everyone that I belong to you.
I just can’t walk away…
What it is in you mind?
I don’t know if I can ever figure it out.
I think I can’t escape the invisible chains of your bondage…
A prisoner I have made of myself…
It’s all in my own mind.
Living through my own darkness
Of what can be…
Or what shouldn’t be…
Only to be held by you.
In a way you will never let go…
I don’t know if I am alive or dead.
A prisoner of my own frailties…
A creature of living always on the edge…
Creeping from light and darkness.
Searching to sort out what is really good and evil.
Silently walking the dark hallways of what is warped in my mind.
Looking out towards the light maybe to get a glimpse of reality…
I fear I might have lost…
I feel I am slipping away from sanity…
Only to great madness, if I can’t let go from you.
Looking into the future…
Only to see ashes and shadows.
Of what used to be me…