Goodbye Poem by Patrick Shields

I lie on my bed tears falling from my eyes
My wrists ache and have continued to bleed
I have the blankets over my head to muffle the cries
As my suicide note I start to read

I have Tylenol, and Tramadol lined up
And a glass of water to swollow them down
I hoping that all this will be enough
A suicide that will make little sound

And I actually thought I escaped this fate
But suicide seems to be my way to go
My heart is full of pain and hate
And no one even knows

Which is just the way I want it
Because I don't want anyone trying to save me
Because I just want to die and forget
From this daily pain and heartache I want to be free

So I'm sorry to whoever this hurts
But I'm not cut out for this thing called life
I know you'll think I'm a big jerk
And I'm just to weak to continue the fight

So I hope I get to year I love you from Rae
Before I decide to just simply give up
Either way today will be my last day
Because I'm tired and I've had enough