Have I Learned Yet? ! ! Poem by Crystal Tutson

Let him go, he wasn’t supposed to be mine
I had him for a little while but now I’m out of time

The rebound chick, the chick that was the ear but didn’t have a right to give an ear is what I signed up to be
But when it all boils down to it, when the end comes, he will always follow his heart indeed

No matter how much I wanted it to be and no matter how badly I need him here,
I was the other woman and the end causes for me to shed a tear

My heart won’t let me cry too much but my mind is overflowing with questions and reasons
Like why didn’t he tell me sooner because I was the ear, maybe he knew about my fragileness and didn’t want to commit treason?

Why didn’t he tell me that months ago he proposed and that soon marriage was near?
Oh I know the need that he needed from me would soon like water to vapor, disappear.

No worries, in life people are used and I won’t sit here like he only used me because that’s not it.
I needed him to fill a void that was present just didn’t realize my heart would be captured in the bull’s ish.

So where do we go from here? Do we continue to speak? Do we stop all forms of communication? Do we look each other’s way? Do I look away when I capture you in your mesmerizing gaze?
Life is crazy and sometimes sends you in circles until you learn your way. I ran from one horror of a situation only to be caught up in another complicated maze!

Have I learned yet?