Heart That Forever Bleeds Poem by Naiad Childe Heiseiryu

for the second time, he fled.
i've said this half a million
times to myself
but still, neither my mind
and my heart can accept
it's even harder this time
why i've let this again to happen
let myself to fall in vain and die again

i want to believe that
this is not what I really feel
that maybe this is just a dream
maybe i'm just a dream
i'm not really existing
but this pain is so real
cutting me and making
my heart to bleed
it hurts so much
it's hurting me so much

the words he said keeps
echoing on my mind
'i don't feel love towards you'
do you know what does it mean?
it mean to end my everything
it meant that i am living again
in a nightmare

i wanted to scream, rip myself
to feel a physical pain
maybe it would be easier
'coz i know crying would not
be enough to heal this pain
it'll always be night in my life