Hell Of A Lot Harder Than Expected Poem by Ashley Nichol

my feelings continue to grow for you,
even as i sit out here in the middle of nowhere,
without anything as much as a phone to call you.
i knew this wasnt going to be easy,
but its oh so much harder than i ever imagined.
i miss you so friggin much.
i just wish you knew.
all of this making wishes on shooting stars is BS because its not bringing you to me.
i cannot stand this being away from you...
nobody hears my screams.
sees my tears.
no one even seems to care how much damn pain is in my eyes.
they just dont get it.
its just so unreal.
i dont even get it.
God, CJay! ! !
I love you so much.
and its not even enough to say 'i miss you' because it doesnt even begin to cover what im going through.
im just running...
trying to escape the pain of not being in your arms.
and until i see you,
ill just hide behind the tears of a clown.