Hope Sick Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Sometimes, I would rather be invisible
Traveling all around
Never to be found
Peaceful, Tranquil
In a quiet calm place
Wherever it may be
A place full of loving energy


Such a place where pain ceases to exist
Where anxiety is nowhere to be found
No worries, just being free
Having the fortitude for patience
As time has no place here


All is still upon this place
As if it was only I that was moving around
Everything at my new pace
Helping these thoughts slow down


Perhaps I could start making things move
At the pace of my new patience learned
Touch and feel all that is there
Everything alive and well, More than a metaphor


But then, If I stayed invisible
I would probably scream out for noise
And nothing would ever scream back
Loneliness all around
There would be no going back


Then I ponder away
Thinking of life and its many lessons
Of every situation before me
Those who need a helping heart
Things hurt, but I have to fight on


I just want peace
Not for me but for everyone around me
Destroying all hate and negativity


After all it is so easy to disappear
And in the end, I would be haunted by my own guilt
Of not fighting the battles with all of those I truly love

I just wish they knew this heart well
All I want is to be around happiness
And truly loved


The bad would still come
It is always inevitable, I know
A character builder it always is
I just want positive energy
To fight all the negativity away
Vanquish all the pain and agony
Only to have peace and prosperity for everyone


I just want to be contagious


Is there a sickness inside me?
Probably


I am hope sick after all