How Can I? Poem by Eman Awad

After i was hurt that time,
i promised my heart i won't feel again.
Not as strong as that time,
because i've changed out of my great pain.
And i did as i promised my heart,
but for that i loved stronger and deeper.
I found that i was headed to the dark,
just where my love will grow cheaper.
No place for love in my world,
and no count for love as great as mine.
All i am is a wounded girl,
blaming her self for not seeing any sign.
How can i regain,
the trust between me and my heart?
I caused it pain,
because of me, it was torn apart.
How can i dream any more,
when all of my dreams are still born?
How can i open any door,
without being heard crying,
without being seen torn? ? ?
They say i'm strong,
but how can i be, in front of your gale?
Where do i belong?
i try not to cry to remember but i fail.
God knows i never meant any harm,
to you or to my poor little heart.
I stayed asleep ignoring the alarm,
because i saw my dreams alive in the dark,
and i thought i'm giving my self a new start.
How can i live in this misery,
while i'm still in love like our first day?
But if it took my life,
just to get you out of me,
gladly, i will give my life away.
My life got soar near you,
and the greatest pain if i didn't say goodbye.
Nothing in your life without me is true,
i'll get over you leaving you to say,
How can i? ?