How Do I Begin Poem by Vanilla Thriller

How do I begin
When it is so close to the end?
How did this start
When we are so far apart?
Why must it hurt
To love someone so?
Why do I try
To not let it show?
The future is uncertain
With few happy moments
Ones to be looked back upon
Wishing you had frozen it.
Thinking of it now
Hoping with all my essence
That this instant won’t end
That it will always be my present.
Will someone tell me
Why the things you can’t touch
Need to be held on to
Just as much
As the things we can see
The air that we breathe
Why must fate
Be so cruel to me?
To withhold me from
Someone I love
Why does this feel as If I’m in hell
If he was sent from above?
This place I call home
The world as I know it
Again, my cruel fate
I know that I chose it.
I am aware
I would go through an eternity of
Everlasting torment
Just to feel his touch
Know his love
Even if for only a moment.
I would give away years of my life
To have just one minute
As long as I could feel him
And he could be in it.
I know now
To love is to lose
It was never my decision
Denied the chance to choose
Looking at the choice now
My heart is beating faster
Someone convince me
I am my own master.
Some please tell me
That this is my choice
Why won’t you tell me
How to use my voice?
Yanking the chains
I know as my burdens
Each link another
One of my hurtings
But he in it all
The light I call hope
The only one that can
Break
This corrupt metal rope
But how is that right?
If he I can’t see
And the same chain that holds me back
Won’t let him touch me?