How Does It Feel To Be Me Poem by Stacy Bea

How does it feel to be me,
it does not feel of a thing
it once did
i felt the pain which so many has
so many has for different reason,
no reason same as mine.

How does it feel to be me,
it does not feel of a thing
the pain i had i could not stand
i was on the floor
crying
i could not with stand it.

How does it feel to be me,
i feel nothing no more
i am numb within my soul
head to toe my veins filled in darkness.

Why is it me to feel this
Why do any of us feel this
i might sound rude but i do not cry
i do not cry if my dog died
nor my cat
nor my family
nor my friends

i have seen them died
i could not stop it,
this maybe in my mind
but it is as real to me as the hairs on your head.

my soul maybe be numb but my heart cares for them

i push away

i am on my own

no one is close

nor far

i feel numb from to much pain,
that is how i feel,
i gave up the fight
the fight for my soul
the pain i can not feel but is still there.

i got no reason to continue
i push my family/friends away
they do not longer care for me
i am as dead to them as they are in my nightmares
yet i still walk,
a dead body walking each day hoping for the sun to shine
but never seeing a glimbs of it