How Many Times Should I Cry And Let It Go? Poem by Princy Prince

How many times should i cry,
Wishing my parents would trust me?
They just keep remembering the past
And the mistakes i did

Only in God's eyes
My past is erased
But in the world's eye
My past will always keep coming up

How many times should i wish?
Wishing they would trust me
Like how i would trust them

So much love gone away
A feeling of such a waste
To show them my emotions and care
When they think its less

To compare me with someone who i am not
Someone who i cannot be
Someone who i do not want to be
I just love being me

How many times should i cry?
Wishing my loved ones would forget
All my wrong decisions
Wishing God would take away this pain in my heart
Wishing they would trust me once again

They say, "once trust is gone, it is hard to regain it"
And yes i do believe
Cause it has been two years since my life turned upside down
And since then, no one believe that i can be trusted

It hurts even more
When it is my loved ones
When they cry because of me
When they have a heavy heart because of me
When they are scared that others would get hurt because of me

Love does not always satisfy me
Neither does sacrifice
When negative words or actions
Pressurizesme

When i want things to work out
Including for them to believe in me
Just gets me frustrated and sad

How many times,
Should i let my emotions and tears go?
Just to keep them happy and behave like nothing has ever happened
And i have forgotten all about it

How many times?
How many times should i cry?
How many times should i have a meltdown?
How many times do i have to trust them, even if they do not trust me?
How many times?