Ciara Gough

How My Heart Feels

When you were younger maybe you thought to your self what it would feel like to lose your mother, to lose the love of your life.

I did and I would cry myself to sleep.

Well one day that horrible nightmare came true

And this is just a brief description of how it feels.

Lost the only one in your life that you can truly trust

Lost a major part of your heart

Can't stop thinking about the good times

And how no more will come

Laugh about the funny times and cry

CRY non stop about the SAD ones

Ask God WHY?

Pray for strength

Try not to think about the HURT in you HEART that just sits there


Pray that your mom is with you day and night

Pray you could feel her TOUCH just 1 more time

Then pray for another touch

Pray that can dream about her holding you and hear her voice say

How much she loves you

Wish you could see her smile

Hear her laugh

Hear her singing

Hear her clap her hands

Hear her cough

Hear her Burp

Hear her get mad at you

Hear her praise you

Hear her thank God for having a child like you

Play checkers 1 more time

Then pray for a rematch

Hold her hand

Cuddle with her

Hold her soft spot under her arm

Comb her hair

This list could go on and on and on and on and on... about how much I miss her, what I pray about. But in the END I have to face reality... that it won't come...that’s what HURTS SO BAD. That I won't feel her again! That’s the FACT! That I refuse to face. Because I still think deep down inside that she is HOME right NOW waiting for me to meet her at the Airport for R&R...Could she be there? Was this all a DREAM? Maybe I pray it was...

Created: Monday, September 24,2007

Poem Submitted: Sunday, April 20, 2008
Poem Edited: Friday, June 6, 2008

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Comments about How My Heart Feels by Ciara Gough

  • Who Iam (9/23/2009 6:38:00 PM)

    I still went to my mail box five years after my mother passed looking for one more letter. Keep her close in your mind and never forget the good times.
    Yours is a love that wil never pass away!

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  • Keith Hendrickson (9/16/2009 7:01:00 AM)

    they say time heals all wounds. but some wounds never heal. memories live 4ever and sometimes that eases the pain. nice heart felt piece of writing. i enjoyed it.

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  • Kayode Peter OgunleyeKayode Peter Ogunleye (6/6/2008 4:35:00 AM)

    this poem is quit cool.
    it give you the memory of your mother.

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  • Francisco R. Albano (4/20/2008 4:53:00 AM)

    I remember a TV character saying:

    'When the heart is broken the heart is open.'

    Let your love flow out to your Mom AND to the world. Let their love (and mine!) flow into you.

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