How My Heart Feels Poem by Ciara Gough

When you were younger maybe you thought to your self what it would feel like to lose your mother, to lose the love of your life.

I did and I would cry myself to sleep.

Well one day that horrible nightmare came true

And this is just a brief description of how it feels.

Hard
Sad
Depressing
Lonely
Lost the only one in your life that you can truly trust


Lost a major part of your heart


Can't stop thinking about the good times

And how no more will come


Laugh about the funny times and cry


CRY non stop about the SAD ones


Ask God WHY?


Pray for strength


Try not to think about the HURT in you HEART that just sits there


And Ask GOD PLEASE HELP ME


Pray that your mom is with you day and night


Pray you could feel her TOUCH just 1 more time


Then pray for another touch


Pray that can dream about her holding you and hear her voice say

How much she loves you


Wish you could see her smile


Hear her laugh


Hear her singing


Hear her clap her hands


Hear her cough


Hear her Burp


Hear her get mad at you


Hear her praise you


Hear her thank God for having a child like you


Play checkers 1 more time


Then pray for a rematch


Hold her hand


Cuddle with her


Hold her soft spot under her arm


Comb her hair



This list could go on and on and on and on and on... about how much I miss her, what I pray about. But in the END I have to face reality... that it won't come...that’s what HURTS SO BAD. That I won't feel her again! That’s the FACT! That I refuse to face. Because I still think deep down inside that she is HOME right NOW waiting for me to meet her at the Airport for R&R...Could she be there? Was this all a DREAM? Maybe I pray it was...


Created: Monday, September 24,2007