I Am Man And I Am Numb. Poem by RIC BASTASA

it does not mean that
since we made love last night
that i do not have the courage to say
'bye' this morning.
you say, 'it is too early',
but i do not answer you anymore.
Questions about love,
(or could be lust)
do not deserve the
dignity of an answer.
What did we do when
we made love?
Just once.
Just once.
Did you take my world for
that piece of cake?
I don't have to take yours.
I have mine to last me
a lifetime.
It was good.
That is all i can say.
But it is not worth taking
with me to the next island.
To the sea.
To the desert where my cacti lie.

I am alone as always
Even after love,
a minute after,
when you are asleep,
due to this exhaustion,
I am still alone.

No one makes me happy
and whole again.
i was once.
I do not wish to be happy
and sad again.

I am man and
I am numb.