I Am Very Tired Poem by Yuliia Lapushanska

Of explaining everyone
What happened

It hurts me a lot

It hurts me from inside
And it breaks my heart

My heart is in pieces
And no one need it

They propose help
And do nothing

They everything will be alright
But it doesn't seem like this
At all

And my eyes are darker with every day
Every single day

I would even say

Every
Single
Freakin'
Day

And this disrespect
Hits me
From a bad side
It ruins my vulnerable structure
God heals

But sometimes
I am not enough in His presence
To be healed totally

And if feels like never would be alright

God, thank You for not letting down
For not saying bye to me and my situation
Thank You for keeping my hand in the storm
Middle of it

And being someone
Who gift me rainbows
When my rain is too hard

Thank You for keeping me alive
And renewing my strength
Again and again
When I can't breath
When I can't stay alive

Happy and sad
Blessed and condemned

Ruined and restored
Satisfied and relaxed


And I don't have enough time to remove it
To heal it
God sees my heart
And keeping it still

I don't have enough time to be in presence of God
It's always not enough
It wanted to be more and more and more
And this is endless wish
To be in the presence of Him
When everybody else is so loud and unneeded

Keeping saying their voices
Of silent condemnation
Silent judgment
Silent
But so loud from being not able to be provoked

Silent but loud
Ruined and restores
But not only
Totally

Save and sad
Sad and misunderstood
Left and found
Lost and forgotten

So cringe