I Can Do This On My Own (I Hope So) Poem by Diego Adrian Manriquez

I know what you're trying to do,
You have screamed at me in a attempt to get it through to me,
I've grown tired and annoyed of you,
You don't know how I work,
I closed myself off for a reason,
Emotions get brought up,
And I want to leave,
Don't bring me in on your personal problems,
I won't listen and I won't be there,
Don't try to get me moving on my two feet,
I'll stand still and dig my own grave,
I know that I am messing up,
I know that no matter how hard you try,
You can't change me,
You can't always try to blame me though,
I can atleast say 'I tried',
Gave it 100% and it never really mattered much to you,
I wanted to see you smile,
I tried my best but it was never enough,
Never enough for you,
You always push me to my limits and even further,
I'm a ignorant, pathetic, and immature,
I never really understood what you were trying to make me see,
I never really knew what you expected from me,
I am a failure,
And by the looks of it,
That is all I will ever be,
So for one last time,
Can we spend one normal day together?
Like we used to when I was a kid?
Because honestly,
I am afraid.