I Can'T.... Poem by Skye Masen

The pain inside
Just grows stronger
Second by second
As I watch them together
I love him so much
Why can't he love me
The way he loves her?
Why can't I be like her?
When all I want
Is to be with him
To be looked at
Like the way he looks at her
Cause I'd look back at him
With a hundred more times the love

She's beautiful
That girl really is
I can see they are meant for each other
But I desperately thirst for his love
For that look on his face when he stares into her eyes
I just wish that a miracle would happen
And let me be her for a while

Every night I pray for him
Just like tonight
Soon I fall asleep
But things are different
I'm taller
Slimmer
And beautiful
I look in the mirror and what do I see?
Her.
My dreams came true
I'm her.

I see him coming up
So I go to him
We start chatting about stuff
Stuff that doesn't really matter
Then all of a sudden school is over

I'm a bit down
Cause nothing exciting happened
I look like I'm at his house
I'm sitting on his bed
He takes my hand
And stares into my eyes
His eyes holds love
More than I could imagine
More than it looked
More than I could take
Their love is too strong
I can't break it apart
I thought of all the things
I've tried to convince him
All the bad things

I jump out of bed
I sit on my bed
His eyes still scorching in my mind
I still hurt
But now I know
They really were meant for each other
They can't be separated
As much as I hate to admit
My love will never be strong enough

I can't compete against her
I'll only lose and miserably fail
I'll lose him too
Cause he'll hate anyone who tries to make her feel bad
Cause he's so in love with her
So I hide a smile every now and then
When we talk about random stuff
So that he won't see
My heart that is bruised
The parts of me that ache
But these memories I keep precious in my heart
Especially at night
When I can't sleep
I play them over and over
Till I fall into a restless sleep
Cause he really is the reason
For the teardrops on my guitar