I Can'T, I Can Poem by Victoria Gauci

I can't move my own mind,
It is steadfast in it's place,
Always things that need to be done,
Life is an endless race,

I can't move my hands and feet,
They're cemented to the floor,
If someone came a knockin',
I can't open up the door,

I can't move my vision,
To what I really need to see,
I have hidden under blankets,
So that no one can find me,

I can't bear the pain inside,
It's eating me up alive,
It's a battle just to breathe,
I fear I won't survive,

I can't hear the voice in my head,
Shouting at me to fight,
The torment of loss is alive in me,
Striking from left and right,

Depression like a viking,
Shields wielded for war,
The battle ready to advance,
On my kitchen floor,

Rattling violence in my head,
My broken heart in shards,
To overtake and conquer me,
I am always caught off guard,

I can hear the voice in my head,
Shouting at me to fight,
I know I must do something
Giving up just isn't right,

God give me strength I beg you,
I need your help right now,
I can't go on feeling this,
It has to end somehow.

2012