I Can'T Let Go Of You Poem by Brian Hinckley

You moved on,
like a sailor leaving home for good.
Exploring and growing,
never settling for less than you deserved.

I tried to move,
only quicksand formed around my ankles.
I cant let go of you,
nor the memories of that night.

You were someone I loved,
actually you are someone I still do.
I deny it with my last breath,
but my heart knows different.

Pressure and pain,
forward yet backward.
Moving but staying still,
I don't want to hurt you.

I am not going to act on my emotions,
because it's not what you want.
You deserve more than I am,
yet I can only imagine what we could have had.

Toss and turn,
sheets covered in sweat.
The body next to me stirs,
my body restless in the moonlight.

I have only one option open to me,
and my mind knows I should take it.
My heart is the only obstacle,
it's a worthy opponent to my thoughts.

So I walk on,
giving my 'love' elsewhere.
Hollow comments and idle compliments,
I can't let go of you.