I Don’t Wanna Cry…. Poem by silent soul

I have never known the sorrow I carry,
and I am not familiar with my own tears,
I silently lay quiet
And watch the sky
Wondering whats gone into me tonight..
I want to scream,
But my voice remains unheard by me.
I see the stars shinning bright in the sky
But not brighter then the lights on the land.
Do they cry when they are not being seen?
But they fade away by the artificiality on this land…
I feel sad for them for a while,
But then again I just simply watch the sky…
Darker the night gets
Colder I felt inside
I have my own share of sadness hidden,
Sadness I never shared,
Ignorant you may call me,
But you would never know the bruises I got,
From my loved ones to the strangers I cared for…
Sometimes I ask death to embrace me
But it never came across to me…
I still lay here under this dark sky
Wondering what it might be
To cry aloud, When the whole world watches you,
They would pity you as an audience do,
And afterwards they would laugh behind you.
But knowing all this still these fool eyes
Cries.
The harder I try not to cry,
More they don’t obey me
and one day all they do is cry, cry aloud.
Even my hands wipe these teary eyes,
But they still doesn’t shy to cry! !
It comes as flood
Which destroys the calmness as sudden,
Calmness which was unreal
But it showed somehow it was there.
These tears destroys the pride I had,
To being strong I show…
I hate them
I hate them,
That they make me vulnerable at times,
I hate them,
When they cry for someone who doesn’t even care
I hate them.