I Dont Know How Poem by Chelsea Hansford

I dont know how to be,
The one who isnt begging,
To be loved and wanted.
I dont know how to be,
The one who holds the strings,
To your little puppets game.
How do i make choices,
When the fault will now be,
My own damning error,
And no fault of your own?
I dont know how to be,
The strong face in the frenzy,
The calm in the storm.
So now i have to be,
The decideing hand of fate,
The maker and breaker of love,
Im the one who has to hurt you,
And the end result will be,
My heart breaking more,
From the pain in your eyes.
Ill never know how to be,
The one to say goodbye.