I Feel Like Dying! Poem by TRACI LYNN YARBROUGH

It was only once the drugs were gone that I felt like dying, and I started crying……

I cry and cry because I can’t stand to want you, but when I’m away from you, I’m so much pain! Life becomes unbearable. All the unfulfilled dreams and promises you seduced me into believing while you’re in my presence; I fear I will soon pay for. Sometimes when the source of you is scarce, I gain some control back of my life! Then you once again make yourself very available to me. And once again, I fall…

I can’t seem to shake you up enough confuse you so I can escape. I try to hide but like every other time you find me and temporarily take away all of my problems; make everything seem okay. But then when u feel u have helped me enough to satisfy your selfish needs, you leave me in a daze. Some days I find myself searching for you… but like before when I need you your gone, then out of nowhere you come back….

It was only once the drugs were gone that I felt like dying, and I started crying……