I Gotta Smile And Cry Poem by Edgar John Jackson

Doncha see me digging this hole
Where I pretend to hide my soul?
I gotta defend my last tears
To keep sadness for more and more years…

I believed in you and in each word
I got mad and sad and why not absurd
I believed in your love and in your try
And now I just gotta smile and cry.

I shoulda run safe and good
But it’s just misunderstood
‘Cuz I care for what you think
And it makes me sink… sink

I believed in you and in your trust
I got messed through the air and dust
I believed you kud live and kud die
And now I just gotta smile and cry.

Doncha see I pretend to be blind
Or you just ignore this stuff?
Doncha think it is just enough
To figure out this riddle in mind…