I Hate Me Poem by beautiful imperfection

I hate the person I've become.
I've changed so much.
I've turned to thingd that won't help,
run from God, and such.
I've fallen into a deep dark hole.
I can't get back up.
I've lost my way,
I'ts so hard to keep looking up.
I'm wandering around aimlessly.
I no longer know what to do,
I've lost my identity;
I no longer have a clue.
I hate myself.
You would be so disappointed in me.
Why has your death done this?
My actions are such irony.
I'm doing everything I once promised you I wouldn't.
And I hate how I've changed.
I wish you were here.
Then maybe things wouldn't be so strange.
I thought things were getting better,
but I guess I was wrong.
Since you've been gone, it seems
like someone has paused my life song.

And I don't know what else to do.

Empty.
Empty.
Empty.

Me?