I Hope That Dreams Come When I Die Poem by ziggy bluntz

The ones we need don't know were there
they rip out hearts and give a tear,
i wake up and think dreams are real
because you dont know how i really feel,
i picture you and me together forever
and in my heart know it wont happen ever
i sleep so i don't have to feel
but these dreams seem all too real
i picture just me and you
just doing what we use to do,
its dark outside its snowing
you can smell winter in the air,
i remember the last one, we were such a perpect pair.
the fireplace, the cookies, the hot chocolate,
aint here no more, just memories and a broken door,
you see its really bad that i am drunk tonight,
going to the bar to start a fight,
ive been downing beers all night long,
just sitting around listening to our favorite song
waiting for the clock to strike twelve as
the new year comes i hope im well
all this time i think of you and the
years that we had spent together,
even when we went trhough rought weather
I pass out and wake up with you at my side,
ill never know that im just dreaming of you,
it makes me sad
i start to drink uncontrollably
i think of going back home a little after twelve and im pretty wasted
i don't know why i cant get you out of my mind, i guess
its the fact that i love you and always will
i am man and i ain't supposed to tear up but i love you so much it felt like my world has been taken
away from me, to be honest
i dont think im going to make it home, but
what does it matter if i crash. the truth is that you wont be the only person that wont ever forget me.
i have nothing to live for, for you were the only joy that kept me alive, sometimes i cant deal with society i often feel surrounded by morons
and i don't know what to do, before
all i needed was a kiss from you to make sure my world
was still fine and now its blue
but now everything seems
hopeless
i just wanted to say i love you and always will
but i know you will never feel the same ay that i feel,
you kissed other guys and that tore my heart appart, you
were the glue holding my life together and now that thats gone i dont know what to do, im so lost without you
I just got home and im ok but theses thoughts make me so sad, i think that ending my life would be better than living in the misery of not being with you, i cant stand to be without you.
I turn on the faucet and let the hot water run
i look for the nearest blade around,
i look at the mirror and contemplate weather to do this or not, i check my phone its you calling
i guess i just got my answer i dive my wrists into the hot water and start to hack away
i dont fell pain i feel relief
no more crying myself to sleep over something that wasn't meant to be, if you knew i love you i could make you see. Here in my bathroom i pass out without a scream or a sound.
I lay here unconscious or dead and wait for the police and camera crew,
just know ill die always loving you