I Love You. Poem by Kenji McCollum

He told me he loved me,
I didn't know how to react,
I felt guilty for being happy,
smiling at my phone at his words,
I didn't know how to feel,
This wasn't fair to them,
I shouldn't be doing this to my friend,
but i also wish they would break up,
that they would find out what he said,
I feel evil,
cruel,
I should just ball up my feelings and throw them away,
But i don't know how,
Am I really willing to lose my friend over this?
But at the same time i know I am not willing,
but are willing to be miserable so that they can be happy,
I just want to be ok,
want this feeling to go away in my chest,
I want to be happy,
but i want to do the right thing,
Then at the same time I just wanna grab his face and kiss him,
I love him,
but what is the right thing to do?
I wish I knew